well today i found out my aunt carmela is back at the hospital..things are worst this time..i went to go vist after work and man, just breaks my heart to see such a great woman so bad like she is right..she has diabetes..
The drs. had to give her blood, cause she doesn´t have any blood in her, she has more water then blood...her daughter said that she is saying that she feels like she is leaving us all already..that just broke my heart..
i feel angry cause she has 2 daughters who she wanted to see so bad, but they are living ileagally in the USA and they didn´t come when she could see..one of the aughters says she is gonna come already, that is has her bags made and she is ready to come..i just hope she comes before her mother dies...the other daughter syas she doesn´t wanna come cause she won´t be able to go back...i mean please..shes ur mother you have to see her now that she is alive...whats the point in coming when she dies...
Her borther and sister told them that if they don´t come now that she is alive, then they better not come crying when she is died..its kinda of harsh, but i feel the same..
i just pray that God helps us understand this jounry he has given us..help us in this harsh times we are living..help us all in all our struggles..i sometimes feel like i am loosing faith, but i know deep down someday he will tell us or show us why he has put this struggles in our lifes..
Lord help me not lose my faith, help me understand all this, help in my daily struggles..i have faith in you that this jounry you have given is for a porpuse to serve you and others..
For some reason i know she might now stay with us for so ling, but i just can´t or won´t accept it, i honestly have never lost someone so cloes to me, someone i loved so much, someone i consider a mother too..i just pray that if it comes to the her death, that i will be able to help others with their grief..
Well once again i ask prayers for all you guys, please pray for her health and her family.
God bless you, hope you all have a great night sleep. see you guys tomorrow.
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