Welcome to My Blog: Year 2013

Wow this year has been a very hard year, I´ve had many ups and downs!! I started off this year with no job, until February that i Finally got a job. But this job i don´t like, i mean i like i just hate that i have to work with someone who steals alot, not just money but merchandise. i really need to mov my ass to get our bussiness started so i won´t be dealing with people like that. I`ve gotten to learn alot about hardware equipment. I know how to fix something or how to ask for something when it breaks.

This year we recieved a new member in the Family. In April Yael was born, beautiful gift from God that was given to my cousin Perla and her husband. That little guy has given so much love, he is just adorable. He is almost always smiling, i love to see how much he has grown.

This year i have also made new friends, don´t see each other as much but we do keep in touch by facebook.

I have met Francis, he seems like a great man, we haven´t personally met but we do send each other messages on facebook or twitter. we met using twitter, he saw my tweets and said he liked the way i express myself and how i am to others. we messaged a lot, then he told me he loves me, i do think of him alot, but i´m not really sure if i love him just yet. i am also afriad that it could be some kind of lie, like on Catfish on MTV , so maybe with time we get to know each other more and maybe something may happen between us. I do have to say that he is a colored man, which i don´t care. I am afraid that the family might just not like him, but if i loke him and he treats me well then thats enough for me. I leave it all in Gods hands.

My relationship with my brother and I is stronger. He sometimes gets on my nerves but i still love, i have no idea what i would do without. I am thankful that he is still here with me. I still remember when i firwst heard him cry, when we were dropped off in Reynosa with an aunt of ours cause we had to move back to mexico from texas. I hated to hear him cry, it broke my heart and made me angry and scared at the same time. But thank God he is a strong man and has helped me alot with all the issuses we had when we moved here to mexico. He doesn´t show alot of emotions but i know when he is worried, sick, scared or happy. I wish he would find a great woman in his life. If he doesn´t well i will always be here for him. Thank you brother for always being here for me!! Love you!!

My relationship with the rest of the family well, its not like i ould love it to be, unfortunatly many of us don´t talk to each other cause of stpuid reason. like "you hang out with them so i won´t talk to you" But thats the way this family is. Sad to see the family like this. but for those of you that still talk to me, thank you for always being here for me. I sure wouldn´t be happy without you guys!

My relationship with my stepsisters well can´t really say its perfect, i mean we hardly message each other, we hardly ever talk. gotta fix that soon, cause to me they are my sisters cause we grew up together, most of my childhood memories are with them. My brother Javi, well things aren´t too good for him, but i did hear he is getting help, i pray that he gets well soon and we get to talk soon. My little sister Kati, well we hardly ever message each other much less talk to each other, thats is something else i need to change. I Love them all and hate the situation we were put in, we were seperated from each other but i am also proud that they have moved on and now some of them have their own families that i pray one day we get to meet. Guys i love you all and miss you all very much!

I havre gotten in touch with my cousin Jason, he seems like all is going good for him. Hope everything goes well for him this coming year! Love you cuz!

My father, well lets see, i don´t really have a great relationship with him, i still feel anger torwards him about what he did and for not being here for us when we most needed him. I am more angry cause he doesn´t have the courage to admit to the family thats its true about what he did. The family blames my step mother for my father going to jail, but i can honestly say i know its true about what he was acussed of. But thats him, if he wants to keep living with that lie, well then i will always be angry at him, i know its bad for me to feel likethat but its how i feel right now. Now he has a new family, new girlfriend!!! He has done for them then what he has done for us since he got out of prision!! How am i not suppose to feel anger against him when he cares more for them then his own children!!!

And of course theres our grandma, who has been there for us, she isn´t perfect but i still love her very much. This year she has been dignosed with cancer, Drs say she won´t stand the chemotherapies. she does take medication when she feels pain. she had gotten really depressed when she first got the news, but thank God she has a huge faith and huge strength that she doesn´t look so depressed anymore. I am happy that she has a huge faith in God, that has really helped her. I have no idea how i would react the day she won´t be here with us. i´m glad that God has given us the oportunity to get to know her and be with her all this years. She has put up a lot with both her kids and grandkids. She has this love that something it rough love but i still love her.

One of the saddest news i read this past November was the death of Paul Walker, i followed his Fundation, i love how he was. I loved the movies he did. I can´t image the pain his daughter Meadow is going through. He was so young. had a long life ahead of himself. Fast 7 won´t be the same without him. I know i never got to pesonally meet him but i really feel his death like its so close to my heart. Just makes you think that anyone can die at any minute any day! unexpected death is the hardest to accept. Paul Walker RIP!!!

Well i guess thats all for today. Gonna try to post some pictures that i have here on my laptop!! Enjoy! Thank you all for taking the time to read and God bless you all!!