On Wednesday my grandmother went to hospital to have a tumor removed near her stomach, her surgery was schedule for Thursday at 4:00pm. So we all waited patiently until the hour came. The Surgen told our Aunt that was with grandma at the hospital, that the surgery will take between 4 to 5 hours. So she went into surgery feel find, she same out of surgery at around 9:00pm, the surgens told our aunt that they had to remove the whole stomach cuase it was infected with the tumor, they also discovered that the tumor has also afected her lungs. During the night while she was resting Grandma got really bad, she couldn´t breathe. she was in a lot of pain, Drs weren´t giving her much hope, she was asking for all her children cause she was ready to leave and she wanted to see them once more, so all her children left the next morning, Friday, to the hospital, she saw each one of them and got her chance to ask forgiveness, give advice and say goodbye.. She kept getting worse every minute, every hour. On Saturday she was still very ill, in much pain, she couldn´t open her eyes or speak. Many family members showed up at the hospital to see her and pray for everyone. I was at work, just getting updates on grandma feeling useless and sad. On Saturday someone gave us the news that she was doing better and that she was talking and her eyes where opened. Which gave us a liitle fired candled, just a little light that shined was so rewarding. So on Sunday, I went to vist grandma with an uncle and his family. I went in to see her and i just cried silently, i never wantd to see her like that, i never wanted that image of her just lying there in pain. She was all swollen and yellow. I told her who i was cause her eyes were closed, she open them just for a tiny second to see me, i told her how much i love her and how much i am grateful for her love. She just silently answeres back that she loves me too. I was there for just about 5 minutes cause we had to give chance for everyone else to go in to see her, i told her i was living and that we are all waiting for her to come home. She just gave me her blessing . Then after we all got to see her we went to have some lunch, on the way back to the parking lot dad pulled me aside and told me that grandma got worst, that only one lung is working and that she is having diffuclties breathing. He said that the drs still don´t give her much hope. So we all cried and silently prayed for healing. So the next few hours we were just outside waiting for more news and hoping she would get better. We left around 5 or 6pm to head back home. I got home, showered, drank some tea and took an asprin for my headache and feel asleep. So today Monday, i woke up to the news that she has gotten worst, that her organs are failing. Dad says its just hours until she leaves us. He is heading back to hospital with more family members to see her again. I told wanna see her again like that. So i stayed behind along with my brother and other cousins trying to keep ourselfs busy to let time pass hoping for a miracle. .... Just got a phone call from my cousin, grandma is worst, she is asking for Aunts and Unlces to say goodbye, she says she is ready to leave...It makes me angry that she is in a lot of pain. I never imagened to see her like that.
I know i am being selfish asking God to leave he here with us. But at the same time i know that if God takes her she won´t be in pain anymore!!!
Well, i´ll try to keep you all updated. Many prayers for our family, specially grandma!!!! God bless you all!!
These next photos are of my grandmother Celia, these are just a few of many photos of her.
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