Almost 7 months ago

Hey everyone, I know its late at night but I have someone in my head. My cousin Liz.

For those who don't know about Liz, she was diagnosed with kidney failure in October 2011. She was 19 back then. She had a beautiful baby girl named Alejandra Lizeth. Alejandra was barely 3yrs old back then. For almost a year Liz had her ups and downs with her sickness. In times she felt depressed and just wanted to give up. She went through dyalesis everyday 3 to 4 times a day for almost a year.

She was such a great girl. I loved her so much. I loved going over to vist and spent time with her. Even with her sickness she always had a smile, she always made us laugh.

I had about a month I hadn't gone to vist her, I only had comunication with her through Facebook and her brothers or parents. Then in the begining of September I had decided to go vist but I never gave myself the time to go vist her. Then on September 11 2012 I just had her in my mind for some reason, then September 12, I woke up thinking of her and wanting to call her or see her, but do to the way I work and always keep myself busy I didn't call or vist. Then at around 8:30pm my Uncle Omar came to the house and gave us the news that she had passed away. :-( I just broke in tears. I couldn't believe it. Till today its hard to accept. I spent the whole night at the funeral home with the family, I went home to sleep for about 2 hours then I went to work from 8am to 2pm. From work to thee funeral home for the service and the barerial. As soon as I saw her there in her coffin I just could be strong enough not to cry. The when they put her in the ground I just felt so heart broken, I couldn't contain my tears.

September 11 2012 was one of the worst days ever for me, it was a life changing event for me. I had never lost someone so close to me.

For some reason I have been thinking of her for the past few days, but right now I feel like its was September 12, like if I just recived the news of Liz. I miss her so much! Her baby girl is now 5yrs old, she is in Kindergarden. She is such a beautiful girl. She still asks for her mother. It breaks my heart to see Ale sad. But she still got her father and her grandparents.

Wish I could see her, wish I could of taken the time to go vist her or even call her. :-(

Well theres nothing I can do but ask God to help me with this pain I feel.

Its my bed time. I love you all. Thank you for taking your time to read. God bless you all! Goodnight!