Rough three weeks

Well hello everyone! Its been three weeks since i last had a job! Its freaking hard to get a new job, specially when the holidays are getting closer! I have no money with me, cause me idiot ex-boss still hasn't paid me. I called him up yesterday and he said I should have the check by the end of the week! It better be true cause I earned that money in 10 years of work!! My brother has this idea of starting our own business, now that we both know alot about how to mange a hardware store. So we are gonna give that a shot and see how things turn out! We will be needing lots of prayer and patience with all this. I love my brother, he told me it wasn't necessary for me to find a job so soon. to take some time off and just rest after 10 years of working. So he is paying all the bills for us, now that we live together, he just asks for me to have lunch made, have his cloths clean and to clean up the house. I love that, but I am used to having a job, I am used to having my own money. I told him i need a job and he just tells me to wait. I have put in so many applications but all the business say that I should wait till the year is over cause thats when they start hiring new workers. My father hasn't called or texted me in wow I can't even remember when, well he texted me when my cousin passed away but just to tell me he could make it to the funereal. He does know I am without a job cause my grandmother told me she called him and told him, but its like if he doesn't even care, its like if we don't exist to him. Well thats i feel in times well all the time. I haven't had a beer wow in such a long time. I know its been more than a month without a beer. Even though i do have that desire to go out and drink but the only thing stopping me is not having any money. :) Even if I start drinking whenever I have money, i am gonna take it very slow in the drinking. I actually feel great not being hungover, I know my health has improved since i haven't drunken any alcohol. This past three weeks that i am without a job and money ha really help me see who really is a friend and who really are my family members. Most of the family has only asked about the money i am getting from being laid off. they don't really say "things will be ok or something will come up or if you need anything call us" and people who i considered my friends have disappeared, no more phone calls to parties or trips. I know one person who will never forget about and thats God! I know he is always with me and all this is happening for a reason. Sometimes i wish God would just come and explain to me all the events I've been through. As much as i hate them, i need to learn to accept them too. 14 years ago was when everything changed for me. My father ended up in jail, moving from the only place i consider home to a total different country. From one family to another family who i even didn't know. Getting accidently shot in the head, which i still got the bullet in my head and i am so Thankful that God didn't let it get any further than where it stopped. Those are some of the events that mostly made a huge change in my life. There are others but these are the ones that i wish i could get an explanation for. But i trust God!! Maybe some day he will explain to me or maybe its just not meant to be explained. I trust you Lord with everything I just ask for you to give patience to accept all this and to guide me to whatever you have prepared for me! Well i am gonna go for today. Hoping i blog more often now that i got free time in my hands :) Love you. Thank you for taking your time to read this!! God bless you all!