As I go through all kinds of feelings and experiences in my journey through life -- delight, surprise, chagrin, dismay -- I hold this question as a guiding light: "What do I really need right now to be happy?" What I come to over and over again is that only qualities as vast and deep as love, connection and kindness will really make me happy in any sort of enduring way. - Sharon Salzberg
Monday, October 1, 2012
Bummed!!!
Wow, just hen I thought things were starting to go well life just throws back to the ground..So today I get a phone call from my Grandma saying she has made lunch for my brother and I to go pick it up at lunch time. Si we go say Hi eat lunch with her, then she says our father is coming home soon that he needs a place to stay and needs some medication because he is sick from his eyes. Which pisses me off cause he hasn't been there for us for the past 15 years!!!! I mean come on, when he needs our help has the right to ask for it.. So we just agreed that we will accept him but we may have fights once in a while. This whole time I was saying to myself well at least I'll be at work all day, won't have to see him till I'm off work at 6pm. So i accepted that and just went off to work..
Then we get to work, things were going great and then the boss gets there and sits down next to the desk and just starts explaining how one of his businesses is going down the drain, that he had to fire some other employees and that he has come to a decision that makes him feel really bad. That he has to fire me.....FIRE ME!!!! Come on I didn't need this today... I've been there for almost 10 years, in November would of been my tenth year there. His eyes got al watery, so did mine cause he could of at least done this after work.. He said he is getting out a loan to pay what I deserve for all the time I have been working there. I asked him why me, he said that he pays me more than everyone else and cause he needs to financially support his family plus his own sister, cause her husband doesn't have a good job. That she has gone to him for help. and he told her that she has to work in order for him to give her money, so she is gonna take my place at work. Which I still have to go this week to teach her everything I do there. Yeah like in one week I am gonna teach her everything..O well that's their problem. I just want my money for all the years I have been working there.
It also makes me sad, cause I mean 10 years, I started working there when i was 17 years old. I didn't know anything when I first started, now i practically run the whole business, i do everything for him, all the bank related things, the accountability, the taxes, everything, i remember the times he told me he didn't know what he would do without me :( ... It also made me sad cause he was crying when he told me he had to fire me. He's a great boss, i don't think I'll ever find another boss like him.
I will forever be thankful for the opportunity he gave me of working there. For all the great memories I made there. All the parties. He became another family member to me. But somethings have to come to an end. unfortunately today was that day.
I'm just worried about everything else, I'm grateful I don't have kids to maintain, just this problem with my dad. Lucky for me my brother still has a job (Fingers crossed he doesn't get fired too) I also got my credit cards to pay, and other credits. that To be honest I have no idea how I'm gonna do it until I find a job, that's if i find a job. I just can't stop crying right now :(
Well I'm out of here. Just please keep me in your prayers! PLEASE!
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