Wednesday October 24 2012

Here I am sitting in my computer desk, waiting for my brother and uncle to get here with some Tacos they were gonna bring like half an hour ago!!!. Its 11:06pm and we are barely gonna eat dinner, well they were busy putting up the wall that divides my brothers room and the store we wanna start. Praying all goes well with this project we have in mind. I've always wanted to start my own business maybe this is the right time to start. Me being fired may have just came in the right time for me to start the business who knows. I have faith in this project we wanna do cause I am so freaking tired of having to work for other people. I wanna have my own business, I wanna be my own boss. I wanna be a bigger person than what my father ever was. I wanna be able to have my own income. Of course i just don't do this because of the money I mean I don't always wanna have to be looking for a job, I wanna secure my future if I ever have kids I wanna have a future that they can lean on. Of course I know it won't be easy getting started but I have faith we can do this. I really want this to happen. Just about three weeks ago I got to talk with my cousin Jason over the phone. Man it felt great talking to him. I said I was gonna call him the following Sunday but I just haven't found the time to do so. I am hoping I can call him this Sunday. I miss him alot. I miss everyone from over there. Wish things never had gone the way they did. I wonder if maybe I would be a different person if I was still living over there. Would I be married, would I have children. would I have an education??? Too many questions... I miss my brother and my sister. Man I am an Aunt and I haven't gotten to meet my nieces or nephews. That really sucks. I miss Mariann my step mother. She may have been mean but she was there she is a mother to me. She is a great person. a strong person. Raising the kids and going through what she went through just makes me wanna be like her. I just hope she knows that I love her and she means a lot to me. Maybe someday we get the chance to talk to each other. I know that the family here in Mexico hates her, but I don't.I pray for her everyday. I miss those days, going to the beach, going fishing. I still remember our last vacations we took to San Antonio. I loved that trip. its was an unforgettable trip. Well I gotta go cause the tacos are finally here...see you all later...God bless you all. Goodnight