Baby Angel has arrived!!!

Hello Bloggers, please forgive me for not updating like i said i would. Honestly i have no idea why i didnt keep writing. But i got some huge news!!!

My baby boy has arrived, he arrived the 10th of November at 4:10am, he weighted 3.490 kgs and measured 52cm. He is one big baby. Since i got to hold him i feel like the happiest person on this planet. Below is the first photo we got of our baby boy, this was taken 3 days after he was born. We weren´t allowed to have phones or camaras at the hospital, so till i got out we were able to take a picture of him.

I got my first contractions on Monday the 9th of november, so we went to the hospital here in our city, for mu bad luck, i had high blood pressure, which can lead to pre-clempsia which could lead to me losing the baby and maybe me dying, so i was transfer to a better hospital 2 hours away. My husband came along with me in the ambulance. We arrived at around 1pm, While i was in labour i was being monitered cause of my high blood pressure. I was in so much pain, i am grateful i was able to have my baby normally, i didnt want a c-section. At 4am the dr said i was dialated enought that the baby was already showing his head. At 4:10 Angel was born, he did take a few seconds (Which for me seemed minutes) to take his first breath, but i thank God and cried when i finally heard him cry.

This whole experience of almost loosing my baby boy cause of my blood pressure really scared me. I felt alone, but i cried to God and asked him with all my heart to help us both get through this. Now more then ever i know God is always with me, i know that he has a purpose for us all, i know that he will never abandon us. 

My son is one month 17 days old and i am amazed how God has granted me to become Angel´s mother. I feel so blessed to have him in my life.  

Here i leave you guys a few pictures of our baby boy!! 

And once again, i am so sorry for not updating like i should. I´ll try to update at least once a week. :)

Work

       Good evening bloggers!!! Hope you all have had a great day!! Me well I went to get some urine studies done, get the results tomorrow to make sure the baby is doing ok. Then tomorrow i get a blood test to make sure i haven´t devoloped diabetes pray everything goes well. I get nervous with this things. But I have to learn to fully trust God.

       My husband is out working extra hours, and our boss doesn´t pay him extra hours. come on, my husband had worked there for 10 years and they don´t pay extra hours, not even now that most of the workers have quit and now they are left with only 2 workes.. before there were about 10 workers. 

       My husband said that once the baby is born he will look for a better job, unless someone offers him a better job. I say its a good idea cause he always gets home very tired in a bad mood. and thats not good. i hate to see him like that. My husband has always been a hard working person. Since he was 14 he has been working. now he is 38 almost 39 in October. Don´t get me wrong he loves to work, loves to keep himself busy. its just this job isn´t the same for him anymore. We are leaving it in Gods hands. 

      I hate those kinds of bosses that you see they are doing economically well and they go around telling people they have no money... Come on you are only fooling yourselves. Just go around saying that you have become greedy and dont wanna share your money.

    I wish we were our own bosses, that way we wouldn´t have to go through that. I would love to have some kind of bussiness. Our own hours, days of work. Our own salary :) Maybe one day. God will help us get through all this. I am not complaining, its just that some people think that jst because your poor they can treat you mean.. But thats they way some people are.

     Well i am leaving gotta go to bed early cause tomorrow gotta raise and shine early for the blood test. Thank you all for reading. love you all and God bless you all!!! 

Me

Good morning to all! Hope you all are doing great. We doing ok, husband is at work and me well just here waiting for him to get off work. 

Just took acouple of pictures of me, so here they go. Forgive for the glare in the glasses, don´t have photoshop to edit that.

Well i leave you guys with this 2 photos, i just got hungry and well gotta go see what we are gonna have for lunch :)

Love you all take care!!!

Parenthood!!

                Hello readers, hope your all are having a great day. Me well lets say I am doing good. Just this weather that gets on my nerves, i have always prefered cold weather. So this heat is killing me, I hate being all sweaty and sticky!!! 

                Well whats on my mind right now, is parenthood. How do you prepare for parenthood. I have read books and magazines and they explain it so easy, how to feed a child, how to confort a child, how to discipline your child. And many more how´s to.. Is it really nessecary to buy and read all those books and magazines. 

               I have never asked any of my Aunts if they read books like that. I guess i am reading them cause I am Scared of not being a good parent, scared of failing as a parent. I wanna become a better parent then my own parents were to me, but I also don´t wanna spoil my child. I want my son top grow up learning his waf in life, learning that when he falls down it will hurt but just shack it of, lift yourself up and keep walking.  

             I would love my son to have an opportunity to have an education, I wanna be able to provide my son and future child an education that they want. I want them to become better people then who i am and ever will be.

             About Religion, how do you intruduce your child to religion, My husband is Catholic and i am Christian, well i believe in one God and only praying to on God. My husband prays and lights a candle for Saint Judes (San Judas Tadeo) I believe thats how he calls him. My husband wants to baptize our son when he is born, when he is just a little baby. I don´t wanna baptize him so small, i want our son to know what religion is and who God is, that way he can make his own desicion in life about being baptize. I want our son to make his own desicions. I respect everyones opinion and desicion for their believes. For now we are still debating that, i have my head on straight for now that i don´t wanna baptize him.

            I am mostly afraid of becoming a parent cause my own parents weren´t around when i  most needed them. I want my son to always have his parents with him and to know that we will always be here for him. I don´t remember my biological mother, she came around when i was 15yrs old, just to say it was her fault that we grew up without her. Dad well dad always worked and at around when i was 13 or 14 he was arrested and sent to prision for 7 yrs i believe.  We were deported back to Mexico with family members we barely even knew. I didn´t even know how to speak spanish so for me it was difficult to get use to. Thankfully my big brother has always been there for me. We were always together until the day i decided to come live with my husband. I know he got upset about it, but it was something i had been thinking about for a while already. Didn´t want to have to wait any longer. i Still check up on him, send him messages of how we are doing. He has accpeted it and tells me to take care of myself and the baby too. If i ever need anything he always says to call him. I love my brother, don´t know what i would do without him. 

              Well husband is here gonna attend him see if he wants dinner. 

Thank you all for taking the time to read. God bless you all!!

           

Pregnancy

Hello everyone, how´s night going? I am having one of those nights where i am sleepy but i can´t sleep. Lately i have had those types of nights don´t really know why. I am guessing its because of this crazy heat. But at the same time i think it has to do with the pregnancy. I sleep on side then roll over to another side, then i sleep on my back then i do it all over again.

i love this pregnancy, i mean it is my first pregnancy but i love it cause i can feel my baby boy moving around inside me. i love my belly, even though i haven´t gain a lot of weight, i actually lost weight at the being of my pregnancy. Dr said it was normal, some women lose weight others gain weight. I never got morning sickness or nauses. I hardly get cravings. My husband is the one who gets the cravings. 

I am driving myself crazy with the pregnancy, i mean, what things do i need to buy, by when do i need to be prepare for everything. how do i become prepare for when the baby gets here?? Too much going through my head.  

What if I can´t be a good mother, how do i become a good mother, when is it when i become over protected, how do i raise a child. All this is scray. I am 30 years old. i should know all this stuff, shouldn´t I?

Wow the only think i can do is trust that God will guide me and he will help me. Well help us, cause my husband is also gonna become a first time parent, so we need to trust God and of course trust each other. 

Well i am gonna try to go to sleep. Baby is very active right now so i guess it might be a little difficult to sleep. But hey i got all day tomorrow to sleep :)

Love you all, take and thanks for reading!!!

Hello Readers

       well hello bloggers and readers. Its been a while since i have taken the time to write. Hope all of you have been while. We are doing just fine. 

       Whats up with this heat, here in Mexico, its freaking hot in our city. The highest that it has gotten is 50°C While thats what my husband told me. I remember that on Sunday while we were driving to a river to go get refreshed on the radio they said that is was 44°c the time said it was around 6pm. i was like, what the *uck. No wonder i couldn´t stand this heat. and even worst for me i am 6 months pregnant. i sweat like, i don´t know like what, but i sweat a lot. 

       What do you guys think about the Chapo Guzman escape. I mean come on, he had already escaped once from prison, should that be even reason to put more security on him. Keep an eye on him 24/7. Or maybe they planned on him to get out, this whole drug war has gotten out of the hands of the goverment. Maybe him being out will put some order in all this. Or maybe it will get worst, i pray that that doesn´t happen. For all those that live here in Mexico you guys know how bad things are and can get. I rememeber being afraid of even going to work. And my work place was 5 minutes away from my house on foot. Now i don´t work cause of my pregnancy, i talked to my husband and we both agreeded that i will not work, i worked too much and the person i worked with wasn´t really considerate about my pregnancy, i still had to lift heavy things and walk uo and down stairs so many times of the day, only getting 1 hour of lunch. so we both agreeded no more work cause this is my first pregnancy and we want baby to be born healthy. So now that i don´t y husband works alot. i still worry about him going out to ranchs to delivery merchandise. Still a lot of babd people around here. So all i can do is pray and trust in God.

    I still remember when things around here were calm. I remember getting home at 2am, 3am, and not having to worry about Drug Cartels or being kiddnapped. Now i worry each time my husband and i go out. we always try to go out with family members and friends. we always try to not be in  the streets so late at night. 

     Afew weeks ago a dear friend of ours got kiddnapped. He was going to another state with "friends" in one car and others in another car, they had decided to leave late at around 5pm i believe. somewhere during their drive they where stopped and kiddnapped. Thank God that the kiddnappers called and ask for money, and thank God for friends and family that they put the money together and he wa released days later. He said that the driver was one of the bad guys and that other friends of his never even got in touch with him to see why they didn´t make it to the place they were going to. Thats a huge lesson to know how to pick your friends. and to get to know people with who you get into a vehicle with. 

      My husband has told me that he was very lucky that that never happened to him, he used to drink a lot and used to let his friends drive his truck. He said he used to fall asleep and not know how he used to get home or who even was driving his truck. So i tell him to be very thankful that nothing bad everr happened to him. Now that we are together we hardly ever go out without each other. Sometimes he stays at the baseball field with his friends but he gets home by 12am. For now i have no problem that he does that but when the baby gets here i pray he is always home, cause i sure am gonna need his help. i am gonna be a firsttime mom and he is gonna be a first time dad, i want our son to remember moments with both of us together. 

       As for my pregnancy, i am 6months pregnant, Dr says it a boy :) Maybe next week we get a good eco picture and i will post it. I am doing ok, hungry all the time and very sleepy all the time. I feel nervous, scared and excited at the same time. I can´t believe i am gonna be a mom soon. Bad part i don´t have my mother to help me with all this, my step mother i know she would be here for those moments but certain circumstances she cant be here with us for this part of my journey. At least i have comunication with her. I considerher my mother cause she raised us when we were little. I am very thankful she is was in my life. i pray one day we can see each other. I have faith one day we will

        Well thats all for today, i will share and write more tomorrow, my husband is home and i gotta attend him :)

Love you all. take care and thank you for reading.

Huge news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello everyone, sorry for my absences but i am back.

Heres what has changed in my life. In December 22 "014, i decided to go live with my boyfriend. We are still living together, yeah for us. I love my man. i dont care what people say. Hes no Brad Pitt But he is my man, he loves me, he respects me. He is a hard working man.

Most of the family wasn´t too happy for me, cause i was abandoning my brother, i love my brother but i want to have a family of my own, i am 30 years old an ready to start a family, my brother is 31 years old, i think he can manage living without me. Don´t get me wrong, i will always be here for him. and day and hour he needs i am just a phone call away. My brother wasnt too happy either but he has come around and has invited to his house to eat and to vist. we have a good relationship and i thank God for that. The family is coming around slowly, but i pray they all accept my relationship.

and my huge news is that I am Pregnant, 8 weeks almost 9 weeks pregnant!!! I feel so blessed and very happy that God has granted me the will to become a mother. I pray for healthiness for my baby. heres the first picture of my baby!!

I am took excited!!! I just pray everything goes well. 

well thats all for today, my man is about to get here for me, gonna see what the weekend prepares for us. I am so enjoying the time we spent together, most importantly, we get to go home together!!

Love you all, thank you for reading, i will keep you all up dated with all this!! God bless you all