Sunday!!!

    Hello everyone! Hope your all enjoy your Sunday! I am just here waiting for a phone to see if my cousins and I will be getting together just to spent some time, have some beers and some Bar-B-Que :) 

   I could really use a few beers. Yesterday I just felt so depressed. On Friday my brother got home all mad, why, I'm guessing because he had to stay one hour more at work then usual. When he gets like that he just ignores me completely, like if I don't exist. Since Friday night we haven't spoken to each other. Sucks because we live together and we only have each other. Things shouldn't be like this. Jut gotta pray that we fix whatever it is that is keeping him from talking to me! 

   Not much has happened around here. Expect for the fact that I won't be given any English classes anymore. Not given me a good income and my brother wants me to find a job, so I am gonna go out on Monday and try to find a job. I don't ant a job, I want to be my own boss. I wanna have my own hours of work, but for mow it can't be possible. 

   I know more than ever that I need to keep my head up and trust God with everything. Like the Bible says gotta seek God before seeking anything else. If I have God in my life he provides us with everything we need. 

   I've been thinking alot about the man who has stolen my heart. I just can't get him out of my head. And this what I am feeling for him is wrong. I know its wrong, thats why I haven't taken any step to keep in touch with him. This man is a married man, and I don't wanna be the cause of him and his wife to separate. And plus I've also told myself that I will never go out with a married man. So Thats the main reason why I haven't go out with him. I need to find a way to just stop thinking of him.

   In other hand I got a message from my Ex on New Years and on my Birthday. He seriously doesn't get the fact that I don't want to know anything about him. I'm over him. I actually gotten to the point here I just hear his name and I just get all mad. I have lots of hate towards him. Lost a lot of time with him. Too many chances I gave him and he still managed to break my heart. So I am planing when I get enough money, I am gonna get a new phone number. Only gonna give this number to my brother and family members. That way I won't get any messages from Him or this other man I am trying to get out of my head. 

   Well guys just wanted to stop by and write a few lines :) Wish all the best in everything you do. Sending lots of love to you all.  Have a great day!