Happy Birthday to me!!!!

     Hello everyone!! Hope your all are having a great day! 

    So today is my 28th birthday, wow I can't believe I am 28 already. I remember when I was 14 and wishing I was older, no I wish I was younger. Grandma told me that I was born premature, that drs had told my mother that I had a heart condition that I was probably not gonna live through it, but God had other plans for me and here I am 28 years old. 

      I feel so blessed to have what I have, I know that there are times that I hate my life, but I am very thankful that I am still here. I have such a great family. I have gotten so many phone calls and messages from almost everyone in the family. I have so much to be thankful for. I have things that I know I don't deserve. God has been so good to me. 

   I sin alot, I get off my path, but I am over whelmed by the love God has for me. He has given me so much to be thankful for. 

   I usually throw a party with the family then a party with my friends, but this year the family is throwing me a party but there will be no party with friends. I have no money for that this year. I wasn't suppose to know about the party but grandma accidently told me :) 

    One person that hasn't called me or messaged me is my father. It breaks my heart to know that he hasn't yet called or messaged me. But I shouldn't be heart broken, its not the first time he does that to me. The first time it was when I turn 13 years old. I remember like it was yesterday. My step mother remember before he did. I was so heart broken and sad. She just hugged me and it made me feel a little better.  I wish things would be different in between us.  When haven't had a daughter father relationship for 14 years. Sucks! Mainly its because I have a hard time forgiving him for many things he did or didn't do. I have to find a way to forgive him. I might go this Saturday to go vist him with grandma. Its been almost 2 years (I think, can't really remember when it was the last time I saw him) we haven't seen each other. We have talked about 6 times over the phone but thats it. Wish me luck!! 

    Well guess thats all for today. I love you all. I might post photos of tonight tomorrow in the morning. Sending lots of hugs and love!!! God bless you all.