Computer Broken Down

        Hello everyone. Hope your all having a great week. Well my week just sucks, mainly cause I have no computer to use. My darn computer just one morning decided not to turn on. My brother has tried just about everything. We even tried installing a new windows operating system, but it still doesn`t turn on. I think I may go crazy without a computer to use. Right now I am using a computer a cliente of ours left us to fix. I am taking the time to check for any errors in the system and so far so good :) 

       Today I am finally going to the bank to pick up my des employement money. Hopefully I get a good amount, atleast to last another month without a job. I put in some job applications but noone has called me. I am thinking of asking my Aunt Deisy to see if they still need me at their hardware store. I didn´t wanna work at the hardware store cause I already worked for 10 years in another hardware store but it thats the only job i can get for now until we can start our own bussiness  then heck I´ll take it. Cause seriously having no money sucks. Specially when you wanna go out and have some fun :) When you wanna buy yourself something you liked but can´t, thats an ugly feeling. 

      I know the bible says not to worry about this types of problems but how can I not worry about the rent payment coming up, about the monthly bill. About my credit card debt. I am trying so hard to keep my head up. But there are moments where I just wanna throw the towel and take a time out, but in this life that isn´t possible. Gotta  find ways to stay positive. Guess in a way this blog keeps my head high. And specially all the people i have met through Twitter. Its amazing how people you´ve never met encourage you to keep your head high. Ï would never wanna change any of that. I love you all. Thank for always encouraging me to keep my head high. 

        I´ve been reading the bible lately and a question keeps poping in my head. How do you find the strenght to forgive someone so close to you that has caused a lot of harm to you. I´ve though of forgiving this person but it feels like i would be accepting the harm he did and just taking it and foret about it. But thats too hard for me. Cause what this person did really did make our lifes difficult. 

    I am guessing that my main reason for not forgiving him is cause i have too much anger against this person. I know anger makes you not live life the happily. I just can´t find the way to move forward. I just pray to God to help me with this. 

    In other things, NKOTB got out a new single and I love it. I hope they do a South America Tour for this new Cd they are gonna get out. And if they do and I have a job and have the money I am gonna take another chance to go see them again. I loved that i got the chance to go see them at the concert in Monterrey. Thats a day  I will forget. I had a great time specially meeting some twitter friends.  Some people just don´t understand the love i have for this five guys. Specially for Donnie Wahlberg. I love him so much. Just makes me smile writing about him. I love his quotes, love he fact that he takes time to tweet and to meet us. I pray that one day i get one of those hugs he gives out. They seem so relieving. Just like if he takes a weight of your shoulders and just makes it disappear. I would love to feel that one day from him. He´s a special man. A man that i would love to have. Too bad i will never have him for myself :) but i would love to meet him one day.

       Well for today I got no photos to share, specially cause my computer doesn´t work and this laptopn doesn´t read usb. And theres the thing that I haven´t taken any interesting photos lately But maybe next time i have my coputer fixed and have had the time to take pictures I will share with you guys. 

         Guess thats all for today. Love you all. And thank you all for taking the time to read. God bless you all. Sending lots of love and prayers for every single one of you guys. 

Sunday!!!

    Hello everyone! Hope your all enjoy your Sunday! I am just here waiting for a phone to see if my cousins and I will be getting together just to spent some time, have some beers and some Bar-B-Que :) 

   I could really use a few beers. Yesterday I just felt so depressed. On Friday my brother got home all mad, why, I'm guessing because he had to stay one hour more at work then usual. When he gets like that he just ignores me completely, like if I don't exist. Since Friday night we haven't spoken to each other. Sucks because we live together and we only have each other. Things shouldn't be like this. Jut gotta pray that we fix whatever it is that is keeping him from talking to me! 

   Not much has happened around here. Expect for the fact that I won't be given any English classes anymore. Not given me a good income and my brother wants me to find a job, so I am gonna go out on Monday and try to find a job. I don't ant a job, I want to be my own boss. I wanna have my own hours of work, but for mow it can't be possible. 

   I know more than ever that I need to keep my head up and trust God with everything. Like the Bible says gotta seek God before seeking anything else. If I have God in my life he provides us with everything we need. 

   I've been thinking alot about the man who has stolen my heart. I just can't get him out of my head. And this what I am feeling for him is wrong. I know its wrong, thats why I haven't taken any step to keep in touch with him. This man is a married man, and I don't wanna be the cause of him and his wife to separate. And plus I've also told myself that I will never go out with a married man. So Thats the main reason why I haven't go out with him. I need to find a way to just stop thinking of him.

   In other hand I got a message from my Ex on New Years and on my Birthday. He seriously doesn't get the fact that I don't want to know anything about him. I'm over him. I actually gotten to the point here I just hear his name and I just get all mad. I have lots of hate towards him. Lost a lot of time with him. Too many chances I gave him and he still managed to break my heart. So I am planing when I get enough money, I am gonna get a new phone number. Only gonna give this number to my brother and family members. That way I won't get any messages from Him or this other man I am trying to get out of my head. 

   Well guys just wanted to stop by and write a few lines :) Wish all the best in everything you do. Sending lots of love to you all.  Have a great day! 

Trip to Reynosa and meeting Camila

          Hello everyone, well on Friday I went to Reynosa, Tamaulipas  to go vist my father, now that he hasn't came to vist in 2 years. It was a 4 hour trip in bus. I went with Grandma and 2 of her sister in laws. Thank God we arrived to our destination safely.

         While we were there Dad took me to a lot of different stores just to see what I like and to get to know the city. I finally got to meet his new girlfriend. Weird they've been dating for almost 3 years and I am barely meeting her.

        Our cousin Mario took his little brother and his family to vist us all the way from McAllen  Texas. He has a 14 day old baby girl, Camila Alexandra she is so beautiful. He also has a 2 year old baby boy, Mario Alexander. Here are a few photos I took of their vist.

Camila Alexandra

Mario Alexander 

          Camila slept through the whole photo session :)  But I'm happy I got to meet her. Grandma was also so happy to see them and meet them.

        Well guess unfortunately I gotta go to a Memorial Services, one of my grandmothers sister passed away yesterday.

         Love you all! God  bless you all!   

Birthday Reunion

Hello, everyone! Hope your all are having a great day!! On Wednesday night almost all the family got together for my birthday :) I had a great time. Here are a few photos of that day!

Me with a new hair do :)

Uncles and male cousins

My Grandmother and I 

My Aunts

Aunts and Female Cousins

Female Cousins

Me the next day with straight hair, don't usually wear it like this :) 

I had an awesome day that day, got a new look, got to spent time with family. I am so blessed to have a huge family. Thank you Lord for everyone and everything you have given me.

Happy Birthday to me!!!!

     Hello everyone!! Hope your all are having a great day! 

    So today is my 28th birthday, wow I can't believe I am 28 already. I remember when I was 14 and wishing I was older, no I wish I was younger. Grandma told me that I was born premature, that drs had told my mother that I had a heart condition that I was probably not gonna live through it, but God had other plans for me and here I am 28 years old. 

      I feel so blessed to have what I have, I know that there are times that I hate my life, but I am very thankful that I am still here. I have such a great family. I have gotten so many phone calls and messages from almost everyone in the family. I have so much to be thankful for. I have things that I know I don't deserve. God has been so good to me. 

   I sin alot, I get off my path, but I am over whelmed by the love God has for me. He has given me so much to be thankful for. 

   I usually throw a party with the family then a party with my friends, but this year the family is throwing me a party but there will be no party with friends. I have no money for that this year. I wasn't suppose to know about the party but grandma accidently told me :) 

    One person that hasn't called me or messaged me is my father. It breaks my heart to know that he hasn't yet called or messaged me. But I shouldn't be heart broken, its not the first time he does that to me. The first time it was when I turn 13 years old. I remember like it was yesterday. My step mother remember before he did. I was so heart broken and sad. She just hugged me and it made me feel a little better.  I wish things would be different in between us.  When haven't had a daughter father relationship for 14 years. Sucks! Mainly its because I have a hard time forgiving him for many things he did or didn't do. I have to find a way to forgive him. I might go this Saturday to go vist him with grandma. Its been almost 2 years (I think, can't really remember when it was the last time I saw him) we haven't seen each other. We have talked about 6 times over the phone but thats it. Wish me luck!! 

    Well guess thats all for today. I love you all. I might post photos of tonight tomorrow in the morning. Sending lots of hugs and love!!! God bless you all.   

Too Much!!!

Hello everyone hope your all are having a better day then me.  Yesterday I got a call from an Aunt saying that our cousins baby boy, Alex, was in the hospital again. He has had seizures since he was born and last night he had a very bad seizure, he wouldn't stop seizing. So they had to take him to eh ER and he wasn't doing to well. But this morning I got a message saying that he is doing better then yesterday. But he still needs to stay in the hospital.

       And this morning I got the news that my friends brother was killed yesterday. Today is the memorial service. I didn't know too well the brother but I sure do feel very sad to here he has passed away. I don't know what happen but I am guessing it has to do with the violence happening here in Mexico. Sucks to live like this, I know there are worst places to live but I just can't help thinking about everything happening here.

     As much as I wanted for this week to go well, it hasn't gone too well. My 28th birthday is in January 9th I wanted to have such a great week, but guess thats way its not good to make plans without asking God to bless them and help you with the plans.

   Other then the bad news everything else seems ok. Just went to vist baby Emanuel he is doing very well, looks like has gained some weight :) Sorry I didn't take photos. I had only planed on going to check on news on baby Alex. Hopefully soon I get more pictures of Emanuel to post here.

    Guys I'd like to thank you all for taking your time to read. I love you all. Sending lots of love and prayers to everyone. God bless you all!

Happy New Years!!!

      Happy New Years to all!!! Hope you all spent it with all your friends and family. I sure did, I had a great time with the family. It was cold out there at the family ranch but we all had a great time. We drank, danced, talked and ate a lot :) I feel so lucky to have such a big family. God has blessed with with a great family.

     There was a little arguing but nothing got out of control. Until January 1st early in the morning, one of my Uncles who was drunk decided to get in his suburban and start driving around like crazy doing donuts. Then grandma started walking towards him to stop him from doing that before in damages the suburban, But he his a palm tree and scratch the truck and damaged the defence of the truck. When he finally stopped grandma took the keys away from him :) He hadn't slept all night long, he spent all night drinking, so thats what he does when he drinks a lot, believe me he did that once with me, his girlfriend and other friends while we were in the truck with him. That day I asked him to just drop me off at home cause he was getting out of control.

     Other than that, well some of us also drank a little too much :) someone like me.. While my problem was that I started drinking beer than continue drinking with tequila and that for me doesn't go to well. But the next day I drank coffee and some mineral water and I felt all better :) Other people were vomiting all around the place :) Lucky for me i hold everything down.

     On December 31 was Aunt Blancas birthday and her wedding  anniversary and on the 1st of January was Uncle Joels birthday. (Aunt Blancas husband)

    Here I give you a look into what we did to receive the new year. I took like 400 photos but I will only share a few photos.

Isidro with my cousin Lety

Me, Isidro and Lety

Perla, Isidro and Lety

Aunt Blanca with her 3 daughters, Perla, Lety and Brenda

Perla, Lety, Uncle Joel, Aunt Blanca and Brenda

Also on the #1st of December my cousin Mario had their second baby, a beautiful baby girl named Camila. Yeah another family joins us.

Mario with his two children, Mario Alexander and new born baby girl Valentina 

Baby Camila!!!! Isn't she beautiful!!!

This is how we spent our New Years!!! I love you all. Wishing you all have a great year!!! God bless you all.