As I go through all kinds of feelings and experiences in my journey through life -- delight, surprise, chagrin, dismay -- I hold this question as a guiding light: "What do I really need right now to be happy?" What I come to over and over again is that only qualities as vast and deep as love, connection and kindness will really make me happy in any sort of enduring way. - Sharon Salzberg
Friday, March 29, 2013
Life
Today I noticed that most of the family went out to the family ranch and noone invited us. Sucks to have a family who doesn't think about you. But in a way thats ok. I've gotten used to not b missing invited to certain places specially when someone is mad ar you fr blocking them in facebook : this family sure does have huge comunicatonal problems, more trust issuses. Can't blame them. I don't even trust my own father.
I hate it when the family gets like this, just for something so small they all get mad. Come on people things could be worst. Guess I gotta learn to just live on my own and not depend on the family for help wheep my head in this project and Keep Moving Forward.
Today I didn't have to go to work So I got out of bed later then normal. I love staying asleep late. So when I decided to get out of bed. I spent my time cleaning my room washing bed and went to do some shopping and here I am:)
I wanna go out to drink, but I am waiting to see if my Friend Paty calls me :) She has become a very great friend. sucks to know she has breast cancer :( she says she doesnt wanna go through the chemo cause it seems too painfull. She says that when its her time it her time and that she wont fight to stsy here. She says drs told her she only has about 6 to 7 months to live.
I don't know if I can take some else so close to me to die. I'm still struggling with Liz's death. I miss her too much. Wish I could do something to have her here with us again. She was barely 20 years old. She was too young. Liz's daughter is doing much better adapting to her mother not being around. She such a beautiful girl, she has her mothers smile. I love to see her smile.
I am barely 28 years old and I have seen alot happen through out the years. As one gets older you just start to see the world differently and also see many people leave us behind, people that have gone too soon. Just makes me wonder when will it be my time, I pray that its when i'm old and with grandchildren. I wanna have a family, i wanna get married and have children and see them grow up and see them have their own children.
I would also like to see my brother get married someday, have his own family. I'll be called Aunt Diana, more likely tia Diana, I would of course spoil my nieces and nephews. like my stepsister, Mayra has 2 girls and 1 boy, kKristi has 2 boys. Praying that we get to meet soon. I really need to get my passport in order. I miss the whole family from Texas. If you guys read my blog, just know that I love you all and miss you all.
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Just another day
So my brother corrected himself and told me it wad flickr not piacsa, i do have a flickr account so I'll try to upload the photos from there.
If you guys have a problem view the photos please don't hesitate to tell me.
Thank you all for taking the time to read. love you all. may God bless you all. Its time for me to head to bed. Goodnight.
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Facebook Account
Hello everyone. Hope you all are having a better week then I am.
I have had too many problems with my facebook account. People getting mad cause the jokes I post, or just post that simply are post and some people take them very personal when its not entended for them. Too much gosipp there that goes all around town.. I'm getting too frustrated and upset and depressed cause of all that. So I have made the desicion to deactivate my account for the time being. Maybe in the future I will reactivate it. For now I am only using my twitter and blogger account.
I haven't found a way to upload my photos from my camara to the blog from the tablet. I can't even write a post from the tablet to the blog. Well guess i'm not used to using the tablet. I used to always use my computer and now without a computer its harder to get used to the tablet. I have to get used to it cause that tablet and my phone are all I got to keep my blog up and use Internet.
Whos ready for Baseball? Meeeee i'm so ready for Opening Day to start. See how the Rangers do this season with out Josh Hamilton, Mike Napoli, micheal Young and other palyers. I have my doubts about them but I still do have my faith towards them wining this season. :-)
My brother hates baseball, but I love baseball. Usually I always watch the games all by myself.
About the project my brother and I are putting together is still being constructed. Almost there. I really need to open our business and start living and working for ourselves. I'm tried of working for orher people. I'm tired of having to work certain days when we're suppose to be off then we don't get paid extra hours. And i'm tired of people doing bad things at work and I don't wanna be part of that. And I know my brother is tired of working at the hardware store, he's been there almost 12 years.
On news on my dad, well I haven't heard from him since I went to vist him iin January. He doesn't call us, thatss old news, but an Aunt came to vist and she said he might came to live here, its just a matter of time that he comes. Hope he know there no room for him and his girlfriends family in our house. Sorry dad, you decided to leave once again and make yourself another life. We are moving on and making our own desiciones.
Well I guess thats all for today. I'll be here more often then I used too. :-) Hope you all have a great day. God bless you all.
Monday, March 18, 2013
Bad weekend
Hello everyone! Hope you all had a great weekend.
My Friday was going ok, then my friend Paty called and asked if I wanted to go and have some drinks. And of course me being me I said yes. So that night she went for me at my house and we went to a bar to drink. It was Paty her boyfriend, another friend, paty's son and me. We were having a great time. Then Party came up to me and told me she has about 6 to 7 months to live. I asked her why and she said she has breast cancer :-( That just ruined my night. I just got depressed to know that she has cancer.
That whole night we both cried and share stories of our loved ones who are not with us. Her husband died of cancer and he oldest son also died of cancer and know she might die too. She has accepted her destiny, she acceptas it and she said she is gonna enjoy her last months trying to always be happy.
Me in the other just can't come to terms with that. She doesn't want to chemo or medications. All i can do is pray for her.
Its still hard for me to accept that cousin Liz isn't here with us. Its gonna be hard for me when Paty isn't here. She is a great friend. I enjoy her company. I dearly love her.
Well guys thats how my weekend went.
I gotta get back to work. I will try to upload photos of a family reunion we had 2 weeks ago. Its harder to upload photos now that i have no computer :-( but i sure ddo wanna share them. I love when the family gets together.
I love you all. Sending lots of love and prayers for everyone. God bless you all!
Friday, March 8, 2013
Baby Armando
Hello everyone, today i will share these four photos i took of three month old baby Armando i took yesterday.
Hope your all have a great weekend. Sending lots of love to you all! God bless you all.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Working
Hello everyone! Hope your all doing great. My. day at work is going ok. Except for the fact that i hit my knee against a metal box and now i got a bump with a bruise on my knee and it hurts. But other than that things are ok.
I should be working right now but there is hardly any work today :-) i like my job but i hate the fact that the workers steal things even money. I am afraid of coming forward cause one of the workers is my Uncle. I just hope we get our business together fast cause i don't wanna keep working like this. I have a little person in my head telling me its wrong to work like this.
On family news, well baby Armando is doing great he is such an adorable baby. He has a beautiful smile. I hope to post pictures of him soon. His brother Nelson is such a funny kid. He acomponied us at work a couple of day ago and i enjoyed having him here with us. Of nelson i took a few photos of him with my mobile phone.
Who is ready for Baseball season? I sure am. I love my Texas Rangers! Even though they are not having a great spring training games, but hopefully during the regular season they do better :-)
Well guys i gotta go, gotta act like i'm very busy here at work. Have a great day everyone. Sending lots of love. God bless you all.