Apologize

Ok so i Apologize for not writing the next day..oops just got caught up with my cousins wedding..She is getting married this Saturday Sept 3rd. The weird thing is that she is 17 yrs old, and no she is not pregnant, she is getting married because she is in love.. according to her..I hope that this marriage last forever. She does seem happier with him. Her parents have accepted her decision, well they had to, cause they want her to get married with him, so she ran away with him, and now they are approving this marriage. I´m happy for them both, wish them the best of luck. I have been chosen as the God mother of the rings..I couldn´t say no, Perla is like a sister to me and I love her too much to tell her no.

And this little guy is Nelson, He is one year and almost 3 months old. He is such a cute little guy. He is always smiling. He has mastered walking a long time ago :) He has started talking a lot, most of the time we don´t know what he is saying, but we play along to encourage him to talk more. He gets into every cabinet that he can reach..makes lots of noises and love to play with a ball..Lord thank You for this beautiful little man you have sent us.

well not much has happened with, just my ex-boyfriend keeps sending me messages to forgive him..but I guess he doesn´t get the idea that i don´t wanna go back with him. I don´t know why he wants me back, i have been ignoring him for a while and i even been mean to him, but he still insists in trying to get back with me..o well hopefully he gets the message soon. Wish him the best of luck in his life.

Today there were more shooting in our small town, I don´t know if anyone died, cause they don´t say it on the news, but that i know of know one died..I wish all this would stop..like last Thursday a Casino was turned on fire with tanks of gasoline while there we people in the casino..52 people died..wow 52..its such so sad that we live in this country..I pray for all this evil to go away soon..

Things at work, don´t look too good..the business looks like its going down..Praying that all the sells go up...All this drug war going on has brought down many businesses and we have lost good clients and without those clients the business doesn´t have the same sells..but praying that the business stay afloat.

And just cause I love him so much..I leave you all with a picture of Yours truly Donnie Wahlberg :)

God bless you all.

Its 9:35pm

Donnie Wahlberg ♥

Ok so I had to start this post with a picture of the one and only Donnie Wahlberg, i have had him in my mind all, well all week...I would love to meet him one day, even if its just for 5 minutes. He seems like such a great guy. And his hugs, they seem just so relaxing.

Honestly, without disrespecting his ex-wife or Him, I have no idea why they got divorced, but man, i wouldn´t let a man like him go, i would fight to fix what ever went wrong in the relationship, but again without disrespecting, i have no idea what happen or why they divorced..

I know I am young for a 40 so year old man, but man, he´s just so, i don´t know...its what i have always wanted in a man. Loving, respectful, honest, hard worker again so loving :) I feel like I´m in love with him, but I know that will never happen, but I really hope to find a man like Donnie, I know I will never find a man like Donnie, because there´s only one Donnie Wahlberg in this planet, maybe I should go to another planet to look for him :) just kidding, but I want a least someone almost like him.I never thought a man could have so many qualities in him. But Donnie proved me wrong.

I most love about him are his wisdom quotes on twitter, they just lift me up and inspire me, they help me see that there is good in this world, that there is always something good out there for all of us. I always get up checking my twitter account to see if he has posted his wisdom words..or to see how his day has been going, or just to make me smile, he can always make me smile, even when I´m having a shitty day. He´s just a great person.

I sometimes wonder if I´ll ever get the opportunity to meet him, well even see him in concert. I live in Mexico, I don´t really got a lot of income to be going to concerts or buying things for myself, I don´t have children, but I do have my grandma who I support financially when I can, I don´t own a home, i rent, i don´t have a car, i walk or take the bus..but maybe one day they decide to come to mexico, in my town, i would do my best to go to the concert even try to buy the expensive ticket to be able to see him up close, maybe not up close and personal, but up close yea..i would take tons of photos of him singing. well maybe not tons, but I´ll just be happy with me knowing that i went to the concert and even if i get the chance of meeting him, i think I´ll be too shy to take a pic with him..i´m not that type of person that goes all crazy and takes tons of photos, specially in front of someone that i am barely meeting..but I´ll be happy with just seeing him sing live..

well i gotta go. enough of Donnie, for today :) Got work tomorrow and maybe next week I´ll get my vacations like I was told I would. I´ll post another post tomorrow about how my week went. Hope you all had a great week end. Love you all. God bless you all. Goodnight

Its 10:42pm

Tuesday August 16th 2011

well its been a while since i have wrttien my last post, don't really remember when my last post was..i am so frustrated right now. i feel like i didn't sleep at all last night.. I feel like i am gonna fall asleep here at work..

Well today is Hectors birthday, i really hope he has a great time with his family in mcallen. wish him the best for all he does. I really wanted him to be here on this day, but he had to return to mcallen, so they could get all the school stuff he needs for this school year. he is such a great kid..i didn't get to say goodbyecause i was out with Perla and her sister in law, having some beers..

Talking about Perla, she is gonna get married,she went to got live with her boy friend and his parents without her mom knowing..i feel good for her, after tia blanca, her mom, was always yelling at her and critizing her, she has founf some special to love and someone who loves her too. i wish them the best for their marriage. i am actually buting the wedding rings, she asked me to be the Madrina de Anillos and i said yes..she is a sister to me and i love her as a sister..

Tia Blanca didn't take it too good, she is crying most of the time, but she has aceppted to let them get married and even has asked her to get a white dress and that theres gonna be a huge party at the ranch. i have understood that she is gonna get married by the civil in two weeks, but the real wedding with everything and family is gonna be later on this year, thats gonna be the huge party. well i just hope tia blanca realizes that she is not a alittle girl anymore and helps her with her relationship.

nothing much has happened around here with the violence..everything so far seems clam, hopefully it stays like that..

About NKOTB, tey are gonna have a cruise next year, but i can't go..i feel so bad that, i would really love to see them in concert some time. even meet them. I really wish to meet Donnie Wahlberg, he seems like such an awesome guy. I have my hopes up that some day i will see them and meet them.

well i gotta get back to work, well i am not really gonna get back to work i'm just gonna go to my twitter account and facebook account to see whos online..the boss went out of the city, so i will have noone to bother me about using the computer :)

well hope you all have a wonderfull day. God bless you all.

Time 9:57am

Wednesday Hump Day Aug-02-2011

well, today has turned out to be an ok day..just the part that my ex is being a totall jackass...i'm why does he have to get jealuos and mad about other men talking to me, or the fact that i go out with other friends..please, he broke up with me..he just send a text message saying he didn't want to be my boyfriend any more...what an idiot..seriously it pisses me off that he does that..he really needs to get over me..he decided to end the relationship why does he act like if he still loves me...I am over him, because he has hurt me too much broken my heart too many times and i can't keep going back to him...so i told him not to even get close to me becasue i was so angery..i told thim that we can't even be friends anymore cause i need to get over him and stop giving myself ilusions over us..now his mad that i go out and men talk to me...please get over me...

Other then that not much has changed around here, just the weather that i hate..so freakin hot..i want winter to get here soon..i hate heat :( I think each year it gets hotter..it hasn't even rained much this year..not even a huracan has been anounced around here..last yearhuracan alex hit here..and it was bad..many people lost their homes cause of the river rising..but luckynoone died..well not tht i remembered, well in out town knowone died..

In other news dam...i am so in love with Donnie wahlberg, seems like such agreat guy, well man..a great man...i don't know why him and his wife got divorced but damm how do u let go a man like donnie wahlberg..i would tie in up in the basement so he would never leave...well ok i am exagerating with that. but i would do just about anything to make him happy so he wouldn't leave from my side..i check my tweeter page everyday to look for his wisdom phrases, they are always good wisdom words..and his jokes, dam they are funny, he sure did make my day yesterday with all the hot jokes :) i was laughing like a crazy idiot at work and my co-workers were just staring at me like if i was going nuts :) but i didn't care what they were thinking, i was having fun...and the way he talks, its just so comforting, its like if he is very happy with his life..I hopesomeday i'll be able to meet him..i have also fallen in love with their music more then before..its great, i listen to almost all their songs and i never get tired of their songs...wow, wonder why i never heard them before :) maybe because i was too stuck with backstreet boys :) now that they are on tour together damm...i feel so bad sad and angery i won't be able to see them in concert together. but i at least get to watch them on youtube :) always look up videos of their concerts, and it seems that all the audience is having fun and a great time..makes me feel even more anger that they are having a great time..but o well, its not good to complain :) so i'll just have to wait my turn, thats if i ever get my turn :)

well other then me falling more in love with NKOTB and Donnie wahlberg..things at home haven't changed much..its still just me and my older brother,who everyday gets on my nerves, but God know i love him very much. Dad hasn't called or even send a text message saying his alive..it pisses me off that after so many years he finally gets to come home and be a family again, and he decides to go live somewhere and get himself a family..what about us..what about all the years you weren't around to give want needed, or to be here when we most need you..it just makes me hate him even more, God forgive for saying that, but for me i do hate him...all he has done has caused us, hischildren, more suffering :( o well he better not come back saying he needs money again, much less with his girlfriend..
man sucks how my life turned out to be..

In other news my aunt Carmela is doing ok, considering her decease, atleast she hasn't gotten worst :) i pray for her everyday..

well i guess thats all for today, see you all laters..God bless you all

Its 4:41pm
PS:sorry if i have bad spelling, kinda writing too fast and i don't check my spelling :)

Monday 01 august 2011

well, not muchhas happened around here...the fair is here, don't really feel like going this year...many bad things are going around saying that the bad gusy are here and they are threating with killing innocent people at the fair..so thats one of the main reasons i don't wanna go...other then i know i am gonna waste a shit load of money :) i know how i am, i always waste more money then what i should...

Yesterday i want to Rio Santo Domingo with tio omar, chela her husband and tia lucy and her family joined us later on that day...it was an ok day...didn't drink as much as i had planned, but thats great..didn't go into the water but i still had a great time...Hopefully we go again some other day..

Looks it might just rain today, skys are cloudy its very hot...i want it to rain, but i don't have a car to get around the places that i need to get to :) but other than that i really want it to rain...i hate the ho9t weather...i need to move to a place where its nice and cold..love the cold weather :)

No signs of day, he doesn't call to how we are doing..ohh well already got used to fact thar he is never around when we need him, why should he be around when we dn't need him...

Today is Kristi's Birthday, Wish i was with her on this special day...i really miss my brother nd sisters...i wanna beable somedqay to meet my nieces and newphews someday...hopefully God has that planned in my path...it just seems so little time has gone by but it has 13 years already since we last saw each other...

well I gotta go, i am at work and the boss will get here any minute..see you guys later...God bless you all

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTI, I LOVE YOU ND MISS YOU TONS :)

Its 4:53PM