Wow, its been a while i haven´t written. Since grandma passed away i have changed a lot. Its a bad thing cause i have drank a bit more then what i used to. I am still depressed about he passing away. its just hard for me to accept it. But i know God had his reasons why he decided to take her from us.
Recently i met man who changed my life around, felt good, happy. He got me to dress better and even got me a new hair look. which i absolutly love. I had a great time each time we were together, unfortunantly his ex girlfriend is back in the picture and well he has pushed me aside and has asked me to forget about him. i have been crying everyday since then. i hate him for doing that but i love him for making me feel special. its just too hard for me to just accept that he has no feelings for me. o well just gotten learn to pick my head up and move forward, show him that i don´t need him in my life. i have to move forward for my own sake. I will always wish him the best, even if he hates me.
2 months ago Aunt Carmen passed away, another hard death in the family. This year hasn´t been a good year for us.
I still live with my brother which i wanna change wanna have my own place with him bothering me :) i love him, but come on 29 years together is already too much for me. i wanna try being alone for once, i wanna try to feel what it feels to not have to worry about him so much. maybe one day i´ll get the courage to do it.
Dad well we still don´t have that father daughter relationship that grandma would of loved us to have, but that is entirely his fault.
well its shower time for me.Hope to write more often!! I should write more often!!!.
love you all God bless you all!!!
