She survived one more month than what the drs had told us she would survive. She had many issuses regarding her health after her first surgery, for those who don´t know, grandma was diagnosed with a tumor, not sure the name of the tumor, but it invaded her stomach, her throat and part of her lungs, drs had to do surgery on the 6th of February to remove the tumor but also had to remove her whole stomach, the surgery last 7 hours, which is weird cause drs had told us the surgery would last 2 to 4 hours, we were not given an explanation for why the surgery took so long. The next day after her surgery she was very bad, she was saying she was ready to go with God, that she knew her time has come, she was in a lot of pain and for some reason she said one nurse tried to kill her, we were not given an explation on way she was saying that. On the 26th of February she had a second surgery cause she wasn´t healing and something had detached from inside her body, she got a bit better after her surgey, she devoleped diabetes and her body wouldn´t heal properly, where she had her surgery a whole was forming. On the 6th of March she had a 3rd surgery to clean out and reattach another part of her body. Unfortunantly she didn´t get any better. On Saturday i was planning on going to vist her again on Sunday, my only day off, but on Saturday we got news that she was entubated, that drs weren´t letting anyone but her children in to see her, she survived the night. on Sunday she was still weak, but they were able to take out her breathing tube, but as the day went on she had three heart attaks, little by little she was leaving us, at around 5pm she asked to see my aunt Lorena, grandma asked her to sing her some church songs that she loved then after she sang to her, grandma asked her to make a prayer turning her over to our lord Jesus Christ, during the prayer grandma lifted her arms and slowing was fading away, seconds after my aunt finished the prayer grandma just closed her eyes and thats when she left us. She went home before any of us, she was no longer in pain. I was constantly getting updates from my cousin Lety, the last update was "shes died" i broke down to tears, she was a mother to me, she took care of us when niether our mother or father were around.
Her body arrived at the funreal home at around 3:30am. Some of us were already there before she arrived, she looked so precious and peaceful, i cried alot cause she was gone, some of us spent all night there with here, the next morning, we were still there, many many people went to give us their condolences, at 2:00pm on Monday 10th of March, Brother Samuel said some beautiful words, we sang some worship songs specially the ones grandma love, while we sung, my cousin Brenda and i were right next to grandma. At 3:00pm, her coffin was closed to transporte her to her spot of rest, it is about and hour away from the city. its the same place grandpa (grandmas husband) was barried. on our way there, i was asking God to show me that she is alright. Its was raining, but when we arrived to the location the rain stopped for a while and a rainbow came out and a flock of birds were flying above. The sun came out when her coffin was reopened for us to give our last goodbyes, beautiful words were said, scriptures were read and worship songs were sung. The sun coming out, the rain stopping, the brids flying and the rainbow coming out, were like a message from God answering my prayers that she is alright. I have my faith and trust in God. I feel grandma is with God, looking after us!
Its been almost two weeks and it still hurts to know i can no longer see her, talk to her or hug her!. I am grateful to know that i got my chance to tell her that i love her, to thank her for everything she did and thought us!
I pray for Gods help and guidence to get through everyday issuses and saddnes. I know only with God i will be able to get through anything that is sent my way.
I love you all, and thank you for taking the time to read. God bless you all. Here i leave you with my favorite photo of grandma.
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| Her smile is so amazing!! I miss it!! |
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| Her garden of flowers she loved it so much |
